Wednesday, September 07, 2011

I don't like September anymore

September is the Stealer of Children.

I'm not ready to let go of him.

Not even for 3 hours a day.

He brightens each moment that he is awake.

Somehow the house feels dimmer now, and it isn't because of the wildfire smoke in the air.

I am counting down the seconds until 3:30 when I can see his face again.

He will be fine. He will have fun. I know this is true. But I'm not ready to stop experiencing all the moments of his life. This adventure will take place without me by his side, and I hate that.

I'm trying hard to not be an emotional wreck. Trying. Failing.

10 comments:

Chocolates4Breakfast (TerriBoog) said...

Awwww... what a sweet post! I know your son will be as happy to see you as you are to see him. And, he will be full of life and fun stories that are going to make you smile!

Jen said...

But look at that smile on his face. His world is getting larger and he'll come home with stories to share. You'll have even more to talk about and giggle about. Is this helping??? :) Please tell our young man that Auntie Mama will be calling his tonight to hear of all his adventures. Hang in there mama...I promise that it will get easier...

Mouse said...

awww .. he looks like he was having bags of fun to tell you when he got home :) do
enjoy the time apart(you get to do some just for me things ) as well as all the time spent together cause you have done all those got to get done before he gets home jobs ....as it goes wayyyy to fast ... speaking from experience here :) love mouse xxxx

Penny said...

Oh... I'm sad for you! I remember the first day of kindergarten with each of my 3 daughters....

So bittersweet.... it's time for them to grow and learn and have new adventures. So hard for a mom who just wants to be with them...... Yes, I remember it so well....

I send my best wishes -- he will do great and you will adjust to this new stage of life. Hang in there!

Catherine said...

I understand how you feel. This is definitely a turning point in your lives. Each new stage is so bittersweet, as you remember life as it was and also begin to enjoy the new moments the next stage will bring.

Hugs!!

Marie said...

Oh Beth!! I know how you feel! and I must admit I'm feeling it again a little -- not that I'm with Jack all that much, but he is growing up too fast!!

It will get easier before long, and you will have good times with Katie all by herself. But I know you will miss having Jack there as part of your every day, every moment life. I'm thinking of you.

I'm anxious to hear how Jack's first day of school went. I will be gone this evening, but maybe I can have a conversation with him soon.

I love you!

Joy said...

This post tugs at my heart. Sad, they are so happy and we have to put on a brave face. Mine are up and gone and I still remember that first day in September.

Patti said...

Beth,
I know exactly what you mean! I cried the whole time that my oldest was at his first day of kindergarten. I can't imagine what I will do when he leaves for college next fall...
Blessings, Patti

Patty C. said...

September isn't a stealer of Children -
It's a giver of:
*your child running to hug you at
0330 because he missed you too
*wonderful stories about all of the
activities he participated in
throughout the day
*fantastic new friends for him
*great comments about his lovely
teacher who is awesome but just not
the same as you
*sleepy eyes that rest peacefully
having made it through a challenging
experience because he has had a
wonderful foundation in place -the
one you gave him-to help him be
successful in life !!!!!
You are such a good mommy !!!!!
Don't you just love September ;)

Heather said...

It's just the first step. Though it does get easier.